The 13th.
Well, I'm signifigantly pissed.
This is the second night(IN A ROW) that I've made plans and had everyone cancel on me.(Ok, so yesterday ONE person showed up. Tonight it was none. Dammit.)
People really piss me off. I'm so sick and tired of all the lies, all the excuses (even legitimate ones!). I just wish once in a while people would actually do what they said they would.
Well enough of that bitchy shit. So how are YOU doing this morning, faithful reader?
I've got my head but my head is unraveling. Can't keep control can't keep track of where it's traveling. I got my heart but my heart is no good. And you're the only one that's understood. -Mr. Reznor
I'm watching Universal Soldier with Dolf Lundgren and Jean-Claude Van Damme. They both suck as actors. I just wanted to see a movie with alot of violence and stuff blowing up. (Always fun to watch when you're in a bad mood.) As beavis would say, "heheheheh, blowing stuff up is cool." I rented another movie, Living in Oblivion with Steve Buscemi. He's a great actor.
Well, so far, this weekend has been one incredibly long, unending disappointment. (I did get the house cleaned up yesterday though.) I'm gonna go out with my friend Psycho and do something today, so that should be fun. I know he won't cancel on me. I'll fill you in on what kind of fun Psycho and I will have later.
Until then, Faithful reader.
LATER--
Well, Psycho and I went to the mall and the movie. We were looking for a video of some comic, I can't remember his name. But the band TOOL dedicated a whole album to him, and wrote 2 songs about him. Pretty cool.
I'm so tired of relationships. I wish noone would be happy in one. I don't ever want to see a happy couple again. I saw "The Wedding Singer" tonight, and it brought back a bunch of feelings of a girl I used to know. I'm so lonely now, being alone sucks. I'm just not willing to settle for someone I don't have feelings for just for companionship, and that's probably what's really screwing me over. I just know if I found her, it would all change, either for better or worse, but at least a change. I really want one now.
But that's not the worst. The worst is that my best friend in the whole world has a fiancee. And they really love each other and it's great and i'm so happy for him, but it really sucks being me. It just keeps reminding me how bad it is for me, and how great they are. And he loves to spend more time with her than me, and I really can't blame him, but it still hurts (irrationally.) I know he'll probably read this and get mad at me, but I really can't care. I'm just typing what I feel right now. (and have felt for 2 yrs. now).
Well, faithful reader, I'm sorry if I've depressed you. Go be happy or something, dammit.
Watch cartoons.
Eat lucky charms.
And escape.