The 14th.
[Yes, I'll turn my back on this world.]-Big head todd and the monsters.
Have any of you ever wondered why you get up in the morning?? Have you ever sat back and said "Why do I do it??". I've been watching people. For some of them, it's their kids, so they can provide a good life for them. But there's so many people who don't have anyone. The people who spend Thanksgiving alone, who go to movies by themselves. So why do they do it?? The only thing I can come up with is for survival. They've become used to a lifestyle, and they have to provide it for themselves. Sometimes I just wish there was a great big cosmic reason we do things. That there was some reason I chose to wear tan slacks instead of blue or black ones this morning. But I keep coming to a dead end.
I suppose that's really what this journal is about, reader. Dead Ends. I've come to many of them in my life, and I will come to many more. When you've exhausted a route of examination to the point that you're trapped in a 3 cornered alleyway. I always envision it that way. Like some old film noir. Smoke rising, someone chasing. And coming to a dead end, 3 brick walls. The only way out is the way you came in.
But I have one more vision, reader. Have you ever seen the film Dark City?? A man comes to an alleyway dead end, and he uses a power in his mind to create a door, an escape. I think that occasionally we are able to do that, reader. That occasionally we are able to use our power to escape.
I think right now, I'm just looking for that escape.
and I will find it.
-DARK