September 3rd.

Memories of thoughts.

The last 3 months have been very intresting. I have had outings with girls I would personally consider "dates", both of which failed miserably, either on that night or shortly afterward. I don't feel like I made any mistakes on either night, nor do I feel like the girl did, I just feel like we were incompatible. However, I am getting more and more frustrated as each relationship fails. Some nights I feel very nonchalant about everything, like "oh, it's ok, I'll find someone." And some nights it's alot worse. Some nights I feel like I'm living by myself on an abandoned planet. And I'm very tired of it. What does it take to find someone who will respect you for yourself??

On all other fronts, (besides the relationship one), everything is going rather well. I took a new job about 4 months ago, and i'm finally really getting into the groove of it. I don't have problems with any of my coworkers, we all get along rather well, and noone brags about their technical knowledge, which is what I was really looking for. At all my previous jobs, everyone was in direct competition, everyone felt like they had to prove themselves and show how bad others were. I was just looking for a place where people didn't have to do that. (I work as a computer consultant, working on Y2K stuff right now.) At least they don't compete on my team.

My band seems to finally be coming together. I play guitar, mostly lead, along with my friend, Pratik. Right now we're really in the song writing stage, working on alot of new material. We're looking for recording equipment to start laying things down. You'll hear alot about the developments of this, so I thought you should have some background. Right now, the band is tenatively named "Fractured".

Well, that should be mostly up to date. For more background info, look in the "Me" page, off of the main journal page.